Oh, how He loves me..

Extraordinary January!

2012-02-14T19:54:00.000-08:00

Hiiiii bloggy, first I love you! I've been busy since the end of December so I didnt have any time to sit down and blog, but I missed you everyday:)
Happy Valentines day!!! I had the best Valentine day in the best Valentine days history, believe me honey, it takes no man to have that. Im just saying, God's awesome, if you dont have any plan for the day He does! so my awesome God has sent me sweet people and family to send me cards,gifts and candy. and I had an unexpectedly great Valentine's day<3.

alright let's go back in time to tell you about my January,
biggest thing that was going on is my Musical, "Hello,Dolly!" . I went to practices everyday before and after school, and on 4 weekends, I was completely exhausted I was dropping asleep every night when im finally home after school. thats not the good part anyway, I had the best experience in the musical, with Choir and Theatre folks,like me:) I felt so good all the time I was happy and certainly sure I was doing the best for me, I loved what I did and thats why I enjoyed it so much. We did great on the 4 shows we had many people come see us, and got all positive feedback! YAY WC DRAMA :)))

second thing, I had two weeks of sickness and I was down, If ya know me youd know I dont wanna mention this right now because im over things so fast, all im saying here is that I learned alot about myself from these two weeks that I was tired,sleepless,soar and just feeling like nothing! If it took all that to realize all those things about myself and people around me here, Im thankful for it. I was wondering whats Gods point of doing this at that time in the middle of all the rehearsals when I was already dead tired, and sure enough I had to talk about it to someone and pray about it all the time and only when I knew it was the right lesson to learn, only when I heared from Him, He just stopped everything and I was perfectly healthy and happy the next day. He keeps on showing me how amazing He is, not only by words and scripture but with me and in me and my life, God is truly amazing. He is always there listening to you, so right now if youre questioning anything or if anything -even the silliest thing- is uncertain just pray to God about it and He will answer, for Him you are as important as a starving kid praying for providence. He wants to be in you and wants you to pray to Him. what an amazing jealous God we have! :)
I just feel super good right now, I feel like watching home videos of my fav boy bands, oh yeah sounds goood!

Goodnight folks,
Believe <3

exhaustion

2012-01-22T19:30:00.000-08:00

So basically this week was the most exhausting week of my life, I've never had so much to do or to worry about, I was very stressed and tired emotionally and I didnt have time to rest with all the practices after school and waking up early with the girls. first I was physically tired from walking and standing up I guess, my body is not really a strong one too, i'm not taking any iron pills this year and I can feel the difference now for the first time since I stopped taking them, oh well,I wont be taking them anyway, I prefer a cup of orange juice. yummy too!
I thougth about basically everything this week, that's what I do when I worry. and having too many thoughts in my head, plans,prayers, people to think about,mama not here,responsibility,waking up early,staying after school and homework. I got sick from being tired because my body is physically easily affected by my emotional health, I prayed about it and talked to Ms. Catherine about it almost everyday, I love how she can read me, understand me and give me the greatest words, prays for me and with me. yesterday she came over and we talked and talked and man! she can easily bring all the words out of me, she understands me very well, and she told me it's really hard to understand her too, and we talked about it, another thing in common haha! I love her:)

and so Ms.Catherine got me thinking more about it, sometimes I worry about how I have to explain things too many times even for my bestfriends to understand me, and sometimes I just prefer to pray about it and save it for myself, because when im tired or upset its hard to talk me out and when it's over it's too late to talk about it. but from now on I dont wanna save a word when I need to talk to someone, I will talk everything out, no keeping too much inside anymore because we werent made that strong and because God's stronger than us He answers prayers and have me have amazing people in my life to listen to me and for Him to speak to me through, it will be a new change for this year.
we always have hard times in life and its pointless if you just forget about them when youre done with them without trying to figure whats the thing God's trying to tell you now, I always try to ask God whats the point of these burdens and there always seems to be a great lesson behind them!

so yeah God's amazing, im still sick and aching but im grateful I got the whole thing figured out now and I can always pray.
I love you God, you're just amazing to me- all the time!

God bless y'all ,He loves you!

Inspiration

2012-01-16T22:27:00.000-08:00

ok bloggy blog, I really dont know what to tell you,
I dont know what part of my weekend had got me so inspired, I feel like im charged with words and stuff to say about life and God in my life, Gosh theres too much on my mind and all I pray for right now is some peace, I think alot, and I talk alot, I dont say anything I regret later, but sometimes I just have to wait and see because God is THE unpredictable and when things turn out to be so good with me, I regret all the worry and the energy I spent thinking about things that God has got them all worked out for me.

I've been thinking about singing in my life, I love singing, it's my passion in life, and cooking would be my second thing im passionate about, as for cooking I love to see my result, my yummy creation, I am not a person who likes to try new weird foods but I love making those and trying them, I love food!
back to singing, I do not currently see myself fully convinced and brave about majoring music and vocal lessons in college, only because im afraid, I decided not to leave my passion and Gods gift behind, and study it while studying my other thing, I want to be a brain surgeon.
I'll be posting a video of me singing soon on blog, as the first step.
that's all I have to say here, the rest goes to my diary!
God bless y'all! I love you! <3

Swallow your pride!

2012-01-12T20:42:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I just wish everyone could be so real to everyone, it would be perfect. I cant just say that because im not 100% myself around everyone also, but some people just frustrate me.
some people expect something from you, and when theyre helpless they beg for it, when you say no because its not the right thing for you they play it cool and whatever-I-never-asked-for-it-anyway attitude, when you pray for them and feeling sorry for them and go back and just say something nice because thats whats Godly and right for me, people seem to take advantage of it. then all they show is pride, and they dont wanna talk to me at all, maybe until the next time they come back begging for my love, i'll never know.

so yeah its been like that lately with someone and im not comfortable about it, because God tells us to be fair, and pray for people like that but what if one person knows you so good he takes advantage of you being nice, Im the kind of person that doesnt block anyone away because I wanna give everyone a chance and my friendship, I believe everyone's got something to give to other people around him.
well sometimes, I dont need those things from people who take advantage of my friendship and from being nice and all to them, Im not comfortable around people like that and I decided to just not talk to them, if they really need my valuable friendship he can come for the right reasons without any attitudes or anger within themselves.
that's only for one person in my life and he is a dear one, which makes it harder because I dont wanna lose him but if it's going to be like that then oh well...

Other than that, It's been a long week, but man I love it, I feel like im having the real thing now, the full experience, I was always comfortable here , but now im even more comfortable I feel like home and actually going back home seems far away. Right now I dont care about how long im going to be staying here, all I care about is spending more time with the people that felled my life and heart this year, and take the chance while im with them , I love all of them so much!
Im so excited ill be going back to Youth Group in GPS in February, I miss everyone there and i'm so ready to go back to worship nights.

I have practice everyday until Feb.2 everyday starting Monday, its wearing me out but I love it at the same time, this is what I wanna do in life actually, I love singing ,I love God and myself when I sing, I see his gift in me. and I've been learning to sing and to read music, and I decided that I dont wanna leave this behind in my life, I want to keep on practicing it and singing because I believe you shoudlnt give up what God has given you , and I love what he's given me!

Mama traveled to Malaysia today, I prayed and will be praying for a safe trip, and whoever you are reading this please pray. I have a bigger responsibility right now in the house and with the girls.
oh have I mentioned how much I love my little host sisters here? they are two beautiful girls!
I miss my sister, Jayanah because when she needs me or when I need her, and we dont talk on the same day I miss her and I need to talk to her so I hope on Sunday we can skype.

Im tired and need to go back to bed, though I can stay here and type about the most random stuff in life, if you noticed.
and oh, something so cute happened tonight, its not really s thing its just made me happy :) ill be praying about it!

God bless you!
NIGHT!

buena dia!

2012-01-08T03:15:00.000-08:00

Hello bloggy blogg!
I had a very good day today,
First I woke up late and when you have a trying week at school you love late sleeps, lol
I remember when I used to wake up at 6 am on the weekend in Israel ,Goodbye to those days!
I skyped with Hanadi just when I woke up and I was still in bed, we skyped while I prepared myself to go out, I love skyping with Hanadi.
then we went to church, and I always have good time there, with my youth group and with the class that papa teaches, the Shabat school. I like the subjects papa discusses in his classes and I love to know more and more about Israel and Jewish\Christian history and stories, they are good stories with patterns and meanings that make you wanna think about them!
and then I got home and skyped with the familia,
they told me all about Jayanah's birthday and I said Happy birthday to mom because it was almost midnight there so yeah worked perfectly for me!
pops,grammy and Olya, picked me up then and we went to a goood place for dinner, I had my first stake here in Texas, ( I knowwww! im supposed to have it way earlier,it's Texas!) but yeah it was good man, It's Christmas today in Russia and Ukraine so we all went to the Tower of the Americas with Olya to kinda celebrate Christmas, I had so much fun going on the glass elevator that high in the sky and have a tour there, the 4D movie we watched up there was cool!
after I got home, I found my family setting down all together and just starting Starwars Monopoly, It was so much fun getting beaten by papa and watching him do his own little (not really) evil laugh while crashing each one of us,yaaaay! NOT! it was fun, I admit I loved the game! but why does it have to be a starwars one??? lol -_-.

Thank you God for a good day, I just loved the good times with all those people in my life, and I thank you for the opportunity to talk with Jayanah and pray for you with her, I love that, and we'll be doing it in our lives as long as it brings you glory! God, thank you for a great mom that I have, she is always a blessing to me and to all the people around her, I pray you give her a wonderful year this year, with joyful times, great love, and health, Happy Birthday momma I love you!

4D BABY!

this is at the top of the Tower of the Americas, I love this one!

The view from the tower. 1/7/2012.

Actual real snakes, we just happened to find them in the plastic animals store ;)

Winter in Texas is also a spring,sometimes.

The little movie we watched, awesomeness!

The Tower of the Americas, the small red thingy is the elevator we were in!

God bless

Answered prayer

2012-01-05T22:00:00.000-08:00

Another amazing answered prayer today!
So I was selected as an alternate for the Civil Workshop in Washington DC, it's a contest that I participated in it in November, and they sent me a message in December saying that I was selected as an alternate but not surely yet a winner, so if someone drops out I go instead.
I kept praying for a place for me in the contest because I really want to go to Washington DC and also be a part of the workshop, and today, I got an e-mail while I was in school that says "Change in status : you are now a participant in the workshop! Congratulations!" yaaay I am so happy, God is amazing and he answers our prayers even when theres almost no way for things to happen ,guess what,he makes a way!

becauseourgodisanawesomegod!!!!!!

Jayanah

2012-01-03T20:36:00.000-08:00

Hello bloggy c:
I have been thinking about my sister a lot these couple of days, and I decided to share it here

she is an inspiration to me,
I love her laugh,
her artistic look at life and Gods riddles sometimes,
the moment she's inspired for a piece of writing or sketch she's like *GIVE.ME.PAPER.NOW*,
how she takes a moment to think about things and the next thing you see is her moving on,
she spoils me when im sick,
her humor and seriousness are perfectly balanced,
she works on herself but never more than her relationship with the Lord,
she knows me.period ,
she knows what she likes ,
she's a leader and its hard to understand how she works hard things out so easily ,
she makes you rethink life,
she checks 99% of her to-do list daily ,
she loves me not because I live with her,
she's my bestfriends' bestfriend!

you'll never get her like I do :).

thats my Annah, God bless her heart.

Adios 2011!

2012-01-01T21:44:00.000-08:00

Woo, so 2011 my very successful and blessed year is over, if I think about my year 2011, it was a good year, my whole life changed and I can feel how much I grew as a person,mentally,physically and spiritually with God.
I went to a new school, met new people, the wrong ones and then the right ones, it took me some time to know my real friends but I guess thats the way it is and I do not regret anything, im actually thankful for each person in my life if not for being a good friend then for leading me to the right ones. Jayanah was a senior in my school as well and it was just perfect having her around because we've always waited for that year.
at some stage last year I let some things before God in my life, and those I do regret but i've learned my lesson.
It was a very good year for me in relationships, first with God, I grew up spiritually more than I ever did before, my family; I got closer to each one of my family and with my wonderful new (then) sister in law and EVEN jayanah the person I consider a copy of myself,we got closer, my bestfriend Hanadi, I was surprised and very happy that our relationship can get even stronger after 11 years of being bestfriends, I love her! ,I made new friends from school, summer camp and just random people in life, and I made bestfriends in my new school too,awesome people!
in summer vacation I was a 6 years olds leader, it's my first time with children and I always thought I just cant deal with them but I had one of the best times in my life in that 10 days camp, I've got great memories from that!
God has answered my prayers and let me come here to the united states for one year, thats probably the greatest thing thats happened to me yet, ah,yeah definitely. I had a goodbye party, it was so good to seeeveryone there. and here I am living the dream, I see many new things daily and deal with different things also, I can feel that im growing up and being more responsible, I just love it, this is all I needed and now theres more to come in 2012!
if I wanted to write all the lessons I learned this last year about myself and life it would take a whole lotta time, but ill tell ya one of them, never rush anything in life, let everything take its time and just trust the Lord because His plan is above every accuracy and wisdom, do not rush anything, and being a teenager isn't an excuse for doing stupid stuff "like any other teen in this age" because theres always a choice, and most important, take some time to think about things before you do them and remember the good times, release every pressure and freely be yourself, there's only one you, be that because its unique. I know it sounds like any other quote by other older folks that write about life, but this is what I learned from my own experience for this year through living it.
and one more lesson, the song fifteen by Taylor Swift is very true, like I said, I dont regret any relationship in my life, its all been for good, but as for being a teen in a new school with new people, do not make any more-than-friends relationships with other people because they are different or seem to understand you or have a very close personality to yours, you're going to meet many people like that along the road, don't rush any relationships. for myself right now, i'm going to focus on myself and find what I want and what I like in life, and when the right time and person come it'll be just fine, and I'll know it!

I'm very glad that I have my host family this year in my life, Papa,mama,Veronika,Anastasia, Ms.Catherine ,Pops,Grammy,Olya. all of them are amazing people and have changed me at some point-for good. I love them and I pray I can show them how much their love means to me and how much they mean to me, God bless all of them.

Prayer:

God I pray my dad and mom stay in good health, give them the strength to continue being the perfect example of good parents and I pray I can make them proud and joyful by showing them what they have raised through my success and that I get to see them both next year when I return home. for Jameel I pray for a good successful year with his new job ,God I pray you keep him safe and always able to keep providing love and food for his family, for Louzan I pray for another blessed year at work and generally in life, to keep on being optimistic like always,joyful,and smart. for Naseeb I pray for a successful year with good decisions and happy moments, he's always been a funny person,very smart with interesting thoughts. For Jayanah I pray for a good blessed year, I pray for comfort and trust in You, I pray I can show her how much I love her and appreciate her presence in my life, God just let her take good decisions and give her more of your strength so she can continue her way, let her get good grades and do well on Mor, and just let her have peaceful life mentally and physically. For all my family and friends I pray for answered prayers,love and trust in your plan.

I wanted to post pictures,too bad I dont have any from last year, bummer!

Goodnight and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

God bless! c;

Christmas

2011-12-28T15:33:00.000-08:00

Christmas was quite amazing to me, especially Christmas Eve. We all went to look at the Christmas lights in the city it was very fun with all the blankets and the coats in papa's truck. we rated the different houses' lights and laughed ALOT at the ones that got a half or even a -0.2 ,lol.

before that we went shopping for the whole day and you know how I like shopping days, papa wanted to shop me out, we all know that will never happen.ever.

never.

Anyway, I spent Christmas day with the family, at Grammy and Pops's house. opening presents was awesome, we all were so excited, and joyful.

That night, Papa and I stayed up until 5 AM, talking about religion, Druze and Christianity. I do not remember how we started that but it was quite interesting, we did not discuss history or anything like that. it was more a spiritual talk, and I loved it. one of the things we talked about was the difference between "happiness" and "joy" , papa said he sees a joyful person in me and he likes that, and that it's the main reason why he is interested in Druze people. it warms my heart when people tell me that they're inspired by my joy in life, as long as that makes others happy and wanting to have the same thing i'm happy, and if they ask i'll tell them its God in my life, im so happy by His presence.

here's some pictures of Christmas that I like:

this was in our exchange students party; 6 countries in this picture.

christmas eve with my host family, at the mall :)

Christmas breakfast with the big familia at Grammy and pops's

I had a fun day with Olya at the movies, and I took some pictures of her to edit, heres one:

I like this one, tryna make the eyebrows thing lol

God bless.later alligator!

Gotta trust the plan

2011-12-23T21:43:00.000-08:00

I've been gone these two days for Christmas shopping and I thought I would be late to finish everyones presents but I did a great job and I finished shopping AND wrapping in one day, yay me!
I'm very excited for Christmas, seeing the city all lightened up and happy makes my heart smile; everyones out shopping, I can tell ya the mall was PACKED all day longs, all days this week.
I took my pictures next to the Northstar mall cowboy boots, I love those boots and I wanted to take pictures with them since I first saw them but now they're decorated for Christmas so I had perfect timing to do that, i'll post them as soon as I get them from papa. which reminds me, I have to ship my camera back or sell it and buy a new one. its pretty sad, first because it was good when I first got it but now all the pictures I take with it are blurry and second because I had it with cellphones, cameras,laptops, electronics and I don't wanna start looking for a new camera all over again.
Anyway, Today was a good day, everyone was out for Christmas shopping and no one can take anyone with them because were all shopping for eachother. I stayed home today and decided to stay in my PJ's for the whole day for the first time since I came to the US, and I could do that until 6 pm or something but then I couldn't stand it anymore, I took a shower and put jeans on and went running with Bonnie around the block, I love to do that especially when its chilly outside. My life in the US has been like Mama says: "run run run" all the time, I like it like this, I love being busy and having a planned week. but today I was tired of all that and I wanted to rest and maybe catch up with some sleep...
so when Mama got home we had to go check if I won the Disney world trip contest, and she found out I did not. It's probably the first time I dont win a contest, which made it harder for me to deal with. I got upset and sad, because I really did not get it. why didn't God give me the opportunity to go, I mean He knows exactly what I want and what I prayed for, so I mean,wouldnt winning it be the right thing for me?
I've had amazing things going on in my life these couple of months and since I came to the US, maybe that's why I kind of forgot whats it like to get the thing you do not want from God in your life, so I forgot to expect the other side of what I want and pray for. I am glad I dealt with this today, im fine now and I trust God and His plan for me, wasn't it always with the best consequences? :)

Okay, I gotta go to bed before I have even more hours of sleep to catch up with. ( though I dont think it matters anymore,lol)

Goodnight <3

Very glad im doing this.

2011-12-18T22:09:00.000-08:00

I've been kind of sad for not writing my blog everyday like I planned to do so I can have a record from everyday in the United states. I guess I thought of it as an adventure and that I will have time to do that everyday, that's kind of funny.
Life IS an adventure here, that's true. but you do not actually have time to set and record what you did at the end of the day. it's been challenging to speak in English, express myself and all that I want to say with not only a different language but a different culture. people here are way different from people in Israel. I got to experience a cultural shock, wasn't quite fun at the beginning when I used to talk to people, I realized I did not get the same reaction I would've got if I were to say the same things to an Israeli, in Arabic. but then it was easier for me in almost everything.
I now know why I feel like just spending my whole life in the United states, and why I do not want to be with my family so much anymore. it's because I got used to all this and I like it, and the cultural shock is not there anymore. there are things that I have now that I always wanted to have. and when people ask me what am I doing and how life's been -waiting to hear about my wild American adventure- I want to mention being so happy spiritually, and calm mentally.
God has put many people into my life that are amazing to me; papa,mama,the girls, Grammy, Pops,two Olyas, Ms.Catherine and my friends. I knew that i'm here for much more than getting to experience the states and the culture. I've grown up spiritually more than I've ever did before, here in the last four months. One of my greatest things that ive been having is a healthy spirit and relationship with God. how can you not love God and the life He gave you when you see Him in your life, so amazing to you in everything He does and brings into your life?
Reminds me of

"I've seen dreams that move the mountains, I hope it doesn't ever end even when the sky is fallen, I've seen miracles just happen silent prayers get answered, broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do"

I've seen miracles happen to other people, and to myself, it brings a great pleasure and trust in God.
It's around Christmas time right now, I have two days of school to go and then Christmas break, i'm loving Christmas, everyone is just smiling form the bottom of his heart and its all about family and love! I love seeing that, along with the city lights and houses decorations, and SALESSS. oh yeah did I mention I love shopping? especially good deals and prices!
I'm going to shop this week for all Christmas presents, I also have a big prayer list to go.
My sister has her psychometric exam this Friday, that's one thing i'll be praying about, I want her to get what she wants in it more than anything right now, and I know she can- she's my hero!

Goodnight, God bless.

America!

2011-09-13T16:54:00.001-07:00

So last year I decided to make a year round blog for this year, I guess now's the time to start.
God has put so many blessings in my life this year, He made my dream come true and now im in The U.S for this year. I'm having a blast, im so happy to be with my host family, they're are a great example for me and I love them so much, they've been so awesome To me.
This experience is quite amazing and interesting, I can feel that i'm growing up each day and im being more ready to make my own decisions in my life, and im so glad about that.
So I was filling a paper for my school, they asked me about how is it to be an exchange student and things like that, one of the questions was what do you miss the most in general? I answered " my family, and speaking hebrew" Haha that was funny, I could've answered Arabic but I really miss Hebrew around, lol.
I'm so tired this week, haven't slept well since weekend and when im tired im upset, which makes me miss things, like my family. But I know its gonna be alright after I pray about it.
Im so ready for some devotion.
God bless!

All good!

2011-04-19T14:30:00.000-07:00

So hey blog, I missed writing here so I made a new blog for a new start.
time has been flying these 4 months, I wish it could just stop for a second,

Every single detail about this life is just perfect for me,

God has put an awesome plan for next year as well, and it feels so good to know that! :-)

So were in spring vacation now, spending most of the time studying, and today was so good!

I went to Nancy's birthday and got to see some of my school friends,

plus Reema came for a visit, and then her parents were here as well,

haha finally both of our parents got to meet.

I'm SOOO excited for tomorrow, It's Laia's birthday today,

so tomorrow all of my friends from the other school, Tarshiha are hanging out together and watch a movie!
it's gonna be lots of fun, I have'nt seen them since 20/6 last summer, so yeah it's gonna be so good seeing them! :)

God bless, Night <3